INTO FRIENDSTERISM: My Sanctuary

Sometime in the first quarter of 2006, I blocked any emotion and kept my thoughts, feelings and myself into a world of silence and darkness. I did not want to reach out to friends, nor them to me. I was alone. But after quite sometime, I realize that I miss myself, and being me. And that’s when I decided to take this channel that almost everybody takes, Friendster.

I want to express more of me and yet, I do not want to exert too much effort likt talking, painting, dancing and other stuff that would involve too much physical movement. That is why, I decided to find sanctuary in the vast space of the world’s widest web.

My aim is to put on this sactuary what I see and what I fee in the best and simplest way. But I fear chiefly my expression may not be good enough, may not wander far enough beyond the narrow space of my day to day experience as a living creature. I need to look at my own inertia, worries, (sometimes) self-fate, and fear that I write down emotions that people wouldn’t want to hear from me.

But then, I wanted to go back to who I really am. I am a woman, a friend, a thinker and I am ME!

I am never afraid of the voices inside me, so I am never afraid of critics outside me. Fear, I erased, because I’ve made a perosonal decision, because in the end, it is what people will remember about me. The Nerissa who always speaks out her mind.

Friends, I am back!